Monday, October 17, 2011
I really do not want to share this. Today we went in for our 15 month check up. Everything was going along nicely, until they went to find the heartbeat. The doctor tried and tried and eventually took me to the ultrasound machine. She could not find the heartbeat there and the baby was measuring three weeks small. I was sent to hospital and had more ultrasounds done and was given the news that our special Blessing #4 is in Heaven. To say we are heartbroken is an under estimate. We feel this loss keenly. In our minds we were a family of 6 and we feel incomplete. My eyes are swollen and burning and it really feels like I should not be able to keep crying...but I do. Since my body has not miscarried I have to have a surgery done. Please keep our family in your prayers.