Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Sigh. I am so disappointed. The OB nurse called yesterday to tell me my numbers had dropped from 19 to 17. 2 whole points. At first I was so stunned I really did not say much. Then she hung up and I started getting the shakes and getting very nervous. See, yesterday we were 15 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Meaning today we are 15 weeks and 3 days pregnant. The last pregnancy ended at 15 weeks and 3 days. So I began to get very emotional. A few minutes later the phone rang again and it was nurse calling per the doctors orders. They were just checking to make sure I was ok. I was not ok. The nurse explained that they are not worried about the baby or about the placenta. But I may have to stay on these injections until we deliver this miracle baby. I am ok with that. I just want to be holding this baby this December. One day I was chatting with my sister-in-law and she said, "As much trouble as this little bean has been he or she will owe you a great Mother's Day." That put this image in my head of actually holding this baby and our other 3 kids on Mother's Day 2013 and I am clinging to that image. That will be the best gift. 4 healthy, happy kids. I feel so blessed and cannot wait to meet our little miracle baby!