And....going down

Sigh.  I am so disappointed.  The OB nurse called yesterday to tell me my numbers had dropped from 19 to 17.  2 whole points.  At first I was so stunned I really did not say much.  Then she hung up and I started getting the shakes and getting very nervous.  See, yesterday we were 15 weeks and 2 days pregnant.  Meaning today we are 15 weeks and 3 days pregnant.  The last pregnancy ended at 15 weeks and 3 days.  So I began to get very emotional.  A few minutes later the phone rang again and it was nurse calling per the doctors orders.  They were just checking to make sure I was ok.  I was not ok.  The nurse explained that they are not worried about the baby or about the placenta.  But I may have to stay on these injections until we deliver this miracle baby.  I am ok with that.  I just want to be holding this baby this December.  One day I was chatting with my sister-in-law and she said, "As much trouble as this little bean has been he or she will owe you a great Mother's Day."  That put this image in my head of actually holding this baby and our other 3 kids on Mother's Day 2013 and I am clinging to that image.  That will be the best gift.  4 healthy, happy kids.  I feel so blessed and cannot wait to meet our little miracle baby!